I really like the fall, and i really like the winter... BUT NOT WHEN IM TAKING A PHOTOGRAPHY CLASS!!!!! Its a pain in the butt! I go to work and then come home and its dark already, so i cant go out and do any shoots. I have no one to take pictures of really cause there all gone or working as well. Normaly i could just grab a few lamps and light and head into my garage for some wanna be studio shots but my brothers stupid truck is still in there. Im running out of ideas and its killing me that i cant take picuters. Not just for the class but just for my own enjoyment. I wish there was another day after saturday and before sunday that i could just do any thing cause im working almost 6 days a week then i have school (its almost over) and church on sundays (and i dont care who im talking to somtimes going to church is work) so i dont feel like i have a day off some times and all i can think about is how im going to be doing this the rest of my life. working to live but not really getting a chance to live because im working so much. Arg! Another thing is i hate the class that im in, the teacher is really good and i know she knows more then she is teaching but its such a basic class and its seems when it comes to photography all they teach is basic classes. So ive been looking into other schools, like art schools or PSU and stuff. The problem is i dont have that kind of money to be going to a school like that, and i really dont want to have debt the rest of my life because of it. I really dont know if i have what it takes to go to college as well, ive never been good at school, i have failed every photography class i have ever taken and i may be failing the one im taking now. I never have faith in what i do, i think its crap so i dont turn it in. More with this class it seems every thing is so below me that i dont have the motivation do to it.


ehh...